What is their purpose?
Are they good or bad?
While I don’t have all the answers, I’d like to share a current experience and my personal knowledge with you. This experience isn’t necessarily happy but it is real. It takes courage to share and I do so with the intention of helping to inspire you. After many trials, I have learned to be more open. Our lives are full of happy, fun, and amazing blessings but life also offers pain, fear, and struggles. All of these emotions have their place. I’d like to share my emotional experience… here it goes…
“It was my 5th day stuck in bed. I had permanently indented the mattress below me! My lungs ached as the muscles worked double to usher air in and out. My chest rose painfully with every breath. I yearned for some true rest. My legs were heavy. They constantly reminded me they were still there as I felt an odd tingle that I had only begun to be acquainted with.
I’ve included pictures meant to make you smile! The emotion in the first photo is surprise, second sadness, and last embarrassment.
I knew if I attempted to stand, as I so badly needed to, my legs would shake, shutter and bring me towering to the ground. This alone would start a train reaction. The exertion and effort of standing would force my lungs to panic and quickly close, starting another horrible asthma attack. Then my thoughts turned to fears– would this lead me to the ER? Could I get help quick enough? So I forced myself to sit still and concentrate on breathing.
My mind was slow from the work and distress placed on my body, yet my mind flooded with busy thoughts of survival. How can I make it through this again? I can’t do this anymore. How can I feel better, I would think to myself. To survive emotionally, I sorted through my thoughts to find which were helpful verse those that needed to be discarded. I needed hope.
To put it simply, I was tired. Tried of restrictions. Tired of feeling numb, especially in my legs. Tired of trying to stay happy even though I was consumed with doubts, fears and sadness. Tired of relying on others for my daily needs. Tired of monitoring and controlling my breathing. Tired of taking medicine that never helped and so very tired of waiting in Doctor Offices knowing the result, they’d try to treat my asthma with the same damaging methods and refer me to a specialist only to have that specialist refer me to another. I have been at the other side of guesses, trials and diagnoses with no real cures as of yet. I felt lost, scared and hopeless.”
It’s healthy to express our emotions… it isn’t weakness because they allow us to cope and connect with one another!
Why do I share this singular experience with you today? Because it’s healing. It’s healthy to express your emotions. Emotions are a part of us and a part of life. They are not weakness, they allow us to cope and connect with one another. I know there are so many people in this world that have similar emotions and don’t release them. They hold on, thinking it’s a noble thing (just as I often have!)… those emotions weren’t meant to be held onto. They are meant to be felt, used to make us stronger, and discarded or shared with those we love.
We are to be transformed by our hardships and accompanying emotions. Let them do their job by using them to mold or shape us into better people. In my opinion, emotions are neither good nor bad. They have a purpose… to be felt, understood, and to be used as a refiner. We need to have patience with ourselves and our human emotions. They are normal and a part of life. I say all this to help you and myself overcome these hard emotions, as I am very much human. I have a need to grow and learn from each new experience, just as anyone does. Emotions are real, they can’t be ignored or wished away… but they can be felt, registered, understood or discarded. They will leave their effect, we can choose if that effect is helpful or damaging. Do we change fear into lasting anger or change it to hope and understanding. This is not meant to be an easy or quick process. For me, this will be a lifelong pursuit. I am up for the challenge!!!
Emotions are neither good nor bad… they have purpose. Let them shape us into better people!
I have faith and hope that the destructive and hard moments in our lives have a time and place. There’s an end to all trials. Believing is not seeing… you’ve heard that phrase. It’s a simple aspect of faith, it is courage to proceed without knowing the result. Think of all those who have inspired you… in books, movies, history, etc… they continued on with some form of hope, faith or courage even though they did not know the result. That in itself is a miracle. In the trials you face, believe and keep going. Despair, fear, anger, and hopeless will be there… will you see them for what they are and move forward? I hope so. As for me, I promise to try and try again! I will always look for hope and joy in the face of hardship, even if it’s only after I feel the despair.
Thank you for listening to my simple story and outlook. I hope to grow and learn more! Please feel free to leave any comments, as I would love to hear from you. You may leave these comments on my Face Book Business page, https://www.facebook.com/cmcstamps/. Thanks again!
I dedicate this to my love and number one supporter, my Husband, Dan Williams. You mean the world to me. Thank you for a supportive ear, great hugs, and many years of fun to come. I am a lucky gal! Love you always!